I have been so stressed. Yep, I said “F@^% it” I was a little off balance and I crashed. I crashed. I hadn’t wanted to give up on this marriage before. I have turned cartwheels. Once I did a back flip and I have juggled a million emotions.
I have no evidence of his claims about so many things. I used to want to know why, how, who, and where. Now, let’s just pull that band aid off. I’ll heal.
I am not going to fall apart. I have not been able to get anything done in all this confusion. That is not okay, but I have held on to reality. I have even been able to stop letting him ruin my days. I get out of this apartment and visit my neighbors, take Pedro to play.