He had a job and didn't tell me about it for over a month. He packed his things and moved out over a month ago. It's time to end this and stop laying my heart out for someone that has no intentions on ever reciprocating. My love is not conditional. I can love him and … Continue reading This One
I want to be strong and thrive. I have fought hard. Giving up on something that's killing me, is okay. He has been gone for three months. This is nothing new. I want to be all alone when I am alone. Talking to someone that chose to leave hurts. I can let my guard down, … Continue reading Nothing New
He moved out and I encouraged him to go. That's the truth and I hate it. I wanted to spend forever loving and caring together. That was supposed to be the plan. The truth of it all is complicated. I felt confused and even started get dizzy and sick to my stomach at times. I … Continue reading Time Heals
Days ago I wrote this entry. I have been so stressed. Yep, I said "F@^% it" I was a little off balance and I crashed. I crashed. I hadn't wanted to give up on this marriage before. I have turned cartwheels. Once I did a back flip and I have juggled a million emotions. I … Continue reading Someone Has to Stop
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This is the most comforting thing I’ve read in my search for answers.
“Gaslighting is a form of psychological abuse where a person or group makes someone question their sanity, perception of reality, or memories. People experiencing gaslighting often feel confused, anxious, and unable to trust themselves … Gaslighting often develops gradually, making it difficult for a person to detect.”
Gaslighting occurs when there’s betrayal, abuse, or we’re living with a narcissistic partner or spouse.
Common symptoms of gaslighting include the following:
- Feeling disoriented and confused; not knowing what is true and what isn’t true; questioning your understanding of reality; questioning your memory of events
- Wondering if you’re crazy
- Feeling anxious about making decisions, even very simple decisions
- Constantly second guessing yourself; always wondering if ‘you got it wrong’
- Constantly asking yourself if you are far are too thin-skinned and sensitive; feeling like you need to apologize all the time for who you are or what you say and do
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https://youtu.be/XZiNVGA78kA These words have came to my mind many times since the first time I heard them.
Finding something to do is easy. Getting my tail out the door to do it is part that I find difficult. Tomorrow, I am getting out and doing something for others. I have already confirmed my spot and am expected. I made my initial appointment for my recovery group this last week. My next appointment … Continue reading Accountability